Thoughts
Changing circa 2010.7
Revising this page five years or so after the fact is a showcase for how much I've changed. I'm not sure I want to replace the old with new on account of wanting to remember. I'll need to think of a way to keep the old while update with the current. Having a road map rather than a snapshot.
I'm creeping up on 40, and my old soul is already embracing my old man. I have different values. I want to be Solid. Handy. Unflappable. I would rather putz in the basement and back yard than go out for a beer. Sometimes I'm lonely, but more often I find it comfortable being by myself. When I picture my future, I'm doing my own thing on my own terms and not waiting around for some big hairy lumberjack pirate to sweep me off my feet. Not that I would put up much of a fuss.
Mission circa 2004
I seek to be the magic in the everyday that no one expects, but everyone secretly delights in.
Values circa 2004
Camaraderie - I enjoy having friends of like mind and purpose. I like being in and moving as a pack. I love puppy piles, pajama parties and riding in formation.
Sparkle - Why be bread when you can be cake? ..and I'll just eat the icing. I love sowing joy and mischief around, doing unexpected and over the top stunts, and keeping crotchety old grumps happily cross.
Love - I long for places and times when folks can touch, hold hands, cuddle and puppy pile without feeling awkward about touching or accepting love.
Playfulness - ¬°Skipping (n) rocks (v)! Giggling is more fun than you remember. I hope I always have enough balls to skip in the street, play in the mud, give wedgies, eat raw cookie dough and lipsync & dance in my underwear like a madman to the Josie & the Pussycats movie.
Universal Constants.
All grown men can be bribed with cookies.
Rants
Cigarette People. circa 2004
Up `til college, I was a total non-tobacco person. That changed, I now smoke cigars and pipes. In addition to having lots of olfactory triggers for aromatic tobacco (dad smoked both cigars and pipe), I enjoy activities with other men where no one's expected to talk. I love smelling pipe smoke in whiskers, even if it's my own. Just hits some happy trigger. I will never smoke cigarettes. [rant]I think it's gross to suck chemical soaked tobacco through pantyhose filters. I am downright angry about the way cigarette people throw their non-biodegradable nylon butts everywhere. The whole world stops and gasps if somebody accidentally drops a candy wrapper, but it's just OK to throw butts anywhere anytime. It pisses me off to walk though my neighborhood and see hundreds of cigarette buts on the sidewalk and in the gutter knowing that public works cleans them up at least once a week. I hate to think of how many are coating the bottom on the bay.
Indecision circa 2010.7
Please have a clear plan where you'd like to be before elbowing your way in front of me, because I want to grab the back of your head and ram your face into the wall when you shove in front of me then hesitate so you can decide where to go next.
Financial Planning circa 2010.7
I don't want to hear how poor you are when I see you buying fancy clothes, gadgets you don't need, tattoos and nights out on the town. If you want to go the "living for the now" route, good for you. Please don't bitch about the consequences.
Ingrateful circa 2010.7
If you're going to bite the hand that feeds you, please don't brag to me about it. If you are an adult living with your parents, please don't complain that they are mean to you, smoke or want you to get a job.
Poetry
By DrewBear
Avatars
God
Goddess
WetWorks Pixies
Sigil
Gifts

Not by DrewBear
Deer's Cry translated from `saint' Peter' breastplate
an excerpt from Lynn Abbey's The Simbul's Gift
an excerpt from Troy Denning's Pages of Pain
Dolores by Algernon Swinburne
Sayings
If it ain't spit, it ain't love.
Get it Hot. Hit it Hard.
My beer belly is an Organic Tool Rest.
LA may be "5x5," but San Francisco is 7x7.
Say but little and say it well.
Well done is better than well said.
Empty barrels make the most noise.
If you can't say something nice, say something vague.
The worth of a thing is best known by the want of it.
Whats got badly goes badly.
Whiskey may not cure the common cold...but it fails more agreeably than most other things.
What signifies knowing the names, if you know not the natures of things.
They're not all saints that get the name of it.
"People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they can't find them, make them." -- Mrs. Warren's Profession, 1893 George Bernard Shaw